– “You don’t f**k it up by doing it, you f**k it up by not doing it”, said my very wise teacher in response to me saying I didn’t want to do it because I was scared of f**king it up –
“Doing Art” has never been my thing. Like maths and science, it’s something I’ve always shied away from; preferring to read, write and formulate ideas instead. At high school and university I gravitated towards the humanities and was happy there. Playing to my strengths, and being able to achieve helped me to feel good about myself. But it’s not challenging playing in our comfort zones, even though we might be good there and even excel there; our potential for growth is skewed in only one direction.
The real growth and learning really happens when we challenge ourselves and push ourselves outside of those walls of safety and comfort, to develop ourselves in places we didn’t think possible.
This year as well as learning how to make jewellery, I’m also learning how to draw and paint mandalas. It has been a really difficult and challenging process because one of my lifelong and very well entrenched beliefs is that I can’t do art.
My dad came over a few weeks ago and could not believe I was drawing on canvas – he said to me that even in kinder I did not ever come home with art or paintings.
I have not wanted to do this project because I was terrified I was going to f**k it up, that it would be shit. That if I couldn’t do it perfectly, then I didn’t want to do it. But the only way this thing can ever be ruined is by me not doing it. The tragedy is not that it will be terrible, the tragedy will be that I never allowed that aspect of me to grow and develop and to become better.
Doing it, I’ll overcome the fear.
Doing it, I’ll prove to myself that I can do it. Doing it, even if it’s not that good, who cares? Really, does that matter? That’s not what this is about.
Doing it, I’ll learn how to do it better next time. Practice makes perfect.
To recreate the mandala that I am painting in this picture onto canvas has meant that I needed to make it 4 times bigger than the image I was working off. This meant that maths has also been involved – geometry, calculators, compasses, rulers and a LOT of getting it wrong.
I had to repaint over my first hack attempt of drawing the mandala onto the canvas (it’s called gesso-ing or priming the canvas). But then I tried again with the new learning I got through getting it really wrong the first time and now I’ve started painting it.
This assignment was due in 2 months ago and I have had so much resistance to it but I’m not giving up.
So the question for you today is – how are you challenging yourself at the moment?
Where are you pushing yourself out of your comfort zone in a way that you never thought you would or could – beyond just at work or in your business?
And if you can’t answer that question, then my challenge to you is to find yourself that challenge. And let me know what it is!
Fiona Redding is the founder of The Happiness Hunter, co-host of #BusinessAddicts The Podcast and author of The Happiness Hunter’s Guide to Meditation.
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